Spring!

My head - a giant water balloon, sloshing and swirling with each and every movement.

My ears - a dull, continuous pain in the depths of their canals.

My eyes - burning and watery as though a relentless bully has kicked sand in them.

My throat - raw and irritated as though, with a fork, I tried to retrieve a morsel from my gullet and came up empty.


Ahhhh! Sweet Spring, WELCOME!!

Oh the things little ones will say....

One of my 4 year old Cubbies came up to me at AWANA tonight as we were watching a little cartoon video about heaven. He said, "Ms. Ellen! Is THAT Heaven?" as he saw this enormous gold castle on the clouds. I said, "It sure is." He said, "I've never been there." I said, "Me either, but we will both go there one day." To which he said, "yeah, probably when I get real old, like 16".....................

Gotta love'em!!!

Fear of the Unknown

The days come and go so quickly I meet myself coming and going. The monotony of my daily life is like a scratched record playing the same part of a tune over and over. The needle, stuck in it's rut. A tempo change is on the horizon. Within the next few months many things will change in my life. The scratch in my life's record will skip forward and the music will then continue. What tune will I hear? Will I like the melody? Will it have an upbeat tempo, to which I will learn a new step? Or will it be a melodramatic sonata causing my cheeks to burn with tears?

My nest will be empty. My priorities will shift. I delight in the possibilities that await me. I cry as the pain of letting go of this life I have grown so accustomed to will be ripped from my being. I will become a new person. Who will I be? Will I like this person? Who is she? I am anxious to meet her, but at the same time I am scared to death of her. It will be like getting to know a stranger.

I hope that with my new life comes a desire to study God's Word more, to nurture relationships, to read more, to travel more, to take more pictures.......to, well, live more.

Lord, thank you so much for all the many blessings of my life thus far. I am so excited to step into this new phase of my life with Your leading. I pray that you will bless and keep me and those reading this now. In Your Holy Name, Amen.

They say the fear of the unknown can kill you. I know it will not kill me, as my Lord and Savior is right beside me. He will take my hand and lead me into this next phase in my life.

Where Did It Go?

I can't believe it's been over a year since my last post. It makes me sad. The time has flown by. Wow! What the last year has held. One son got married, one son became a high school senior. And in the blink of an eye, a first anniversary is soon to be celebrated and a high school graduation is on the horizon.

I guess now that it's March, I will resolve to come here more regularly, to this place of quiet and solitude to reflect on my life and my thoughts. Along with the rest of the world I got sucked into the fast paced facebook world of constant interaction, the "fast lane" if you will. A year later, I find myself longing to find an off the beaten path country road to cruise like a Sunday driver. To relax and reflect. To just slow down and take time to think and ponder. I feel like........I've come back home.

It feels so good to be here. I look forward to coming back again soon.........real soon.

Lord, thank you for my desire to find quiet. Thank you for this day and all the blessings that were in it. Thank you for my family and friends. Thank you for saving my life......over and over and over. Thank you for your mercy and your grace.

May the Lord bless you and keep you until we meet here again.